The dream is on hold
After much discussion, my husband and I decided that the doula dream needs to be on hold for a few years. With young children it's just going to be too difficult for them and us, not to mention finances (for every paying birth I seem to have four volunteer ones!). When our children are a little older, and we're in a better financial position, I will pick up where I left out.
I'm still a doula at heart, though. I promise!
I'm sad, but I know it's the right decision.