Does she love me?

I sort of feel like a teenager in love. Waiting, waiting, waiting... to hear those wonderful words: "I want YOU to be my doula!".

I have a potential client right now, who I've exchanged about 6 emails with. The first 6 were all sent back and forth (6 each of us, so 12 total) within a period of several hours. The last email was the "deal cincher" - a list of standard questions you can get online, to ask your doula. I asked those same questions of MY doula! I eagerly replied and now I'm in the waiting stage. It's been 5 days, but who's counting? I even did the pathetic thing and sent an email saying "Hope you received my last message".

Sometimes my emails don't seem to arrive. Or so I'm told. I'm beginning to wonder if my complex is based in reality.

So here I sit, just wondering if sometime soon anyone is going to actually validate my status as a doula. Since I decided for sure to become a doula I've had ONE client. She was wonderful, a friend called J. I looked forward to her birth so much, she had my OB too, and I was anxious to see what he was like in someone else's birth. Well, it so happened that I was out of the country when she delivered. What a track record! Sadly it was necessary that I leave the country. I would usually never leave around a client's due date, but I had to.

So since then I've received some calls and emails, interest never seems to go very far. One has to wonder what I'm doing wrong? Perhaps people don't like a 'newbie' - how will I gain experience then?

Well, I don't mean to turn this blog into something negative, after all, life is pretty wonderful. Maybe I should make a shocker post and put my birth pics up. Bet that'd get some readership. ;)